tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post5891164330783700590..comments2024-03-29T00:34:24.152+00:00Comments on Top Left Quadrant: Week Seven: The Power of Words (along with links to pro tips about writing and creativity)JaneBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17779448611795379774noreply@blogger.comBlogger37125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-8399880546034715642015-11-05T03:35:14.584+00:002015-11-05T03:35:14.584+00:00Oh, late again checking in. I have been quite bus...Oh, late again checking in. I have been quite busy the last couple weeks and seem to be taking on more--another tutoring job (money is money) and babysitting my friend's octogenarian mother over the weekend.<br /><br />I want to thank you for taking the time to post these websites. Guarding my time is something that I have struggled with the older that I get. In the last three years, I have come to understand that even though I am a single woman, I also have problems with giving too much of myself and feeling guilty if I don't. For over twenty years, I have repeatedly heard how selfish I was because I was not married and procreating, and even that I had all kinds of free time because I had no one. However, I have always worked 60+ hours a week and often a full time and two part-time jobs. In the last three years, I've come to realize that none of that is really true and that I should not feel guilty of the fact that I am working hard at something that I am passionate about. It was during the last years that colleagues shamed me about being selfish about my work time. I think it took that for me to see that I shouldn't been my self up about my writing. It's still a struggle, and I admire women like YS Lee who are pretty comfortable and confident with how they guard their time.<br /><br />Last week's goals: <br />1) clean house today--it is a definite must do<br />2) cook for week--another must do because I work late every night<br />3) Write 5 days of lecture on Ancient Greece<br />4) Write 5 days of lecture on Absolute/Constitutional Monarchy<br />5) Spend 1 hour on behemoth--aiming for 3 days<br /><br />Analysis:<br />1) House not cleaned--I forgot that I was not going to be home TO clean it!<br />2) Cooking--pretty much ditto. However, I did cook for my "mom" and ate leftovers for two days. That is a positive.<br />3) and 4) Write lectures for both classes--Yes. That will always be a given since I have to do it. Kids wait for no one.<br />5) Spend an hour on Behemoth--no. I have been mulling things over in my head, which is more than I have been doing. So I am taking this as a positive.<br /><br />Since I am so late signing in, these are shortened goals<br /><br />Goals for the week:<br />1) Grade four major assignments--I am way behind<br />2) Clean house--I am home so I can do it<br />3) Put my ideas on paper for Behemoth<br /><br /><br /><br />metheistnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-18813743378929842272015-11-05T03:11:11.511+00:002015-11-05T03:11:11.511+00:00Thank you all for your sympathy. I do have a wise...Thank you all for your sympathy. I do have a wise DH, and writing about the memories is helping me honor them. Elizabeth Anne Mitchellhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07733237123376048432noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-37273799959118781392015-11-05T03:09:39.020+00:002015-11-05T03:09:39.020+00:00Yes, definitely "should" is a good word....Yes, definitely "should" is a good word. For me, it leads almost directly to shame.metheistnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-83833308728614570202015-11-05T03:06:34.855+00:002015-11-05T03:06:34.855+00:00I too am sorry to hear about your losses. It is w...I too am sorry to hear about your losses. It is wonderful though that you will be able to share your memories with others.metheistnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-21216233456781864692015-11-04T16:25:03.637+00:002015-11-04T16:25:03.637+00:00I have decided that for the remainder of the quart...I have decided that for the remainder of the quarter my focus will be on getting at least 8-8.5 hours of sleep at night. I have not been getting good rest and it's affecting my ability to get the stuff done that I need to. I'm finally caught up on all of my stuff for the quarter (which includes, perhaps sadly, just being "good enough" with the grad class--I was hoping for "great" or "excellent" with this class, but I've had to let that go at this point). And while I'm trying to move beyond just "survival mode" for the quarter, if survival mode is where I stay for the next three weeks, then so be it. And until this article is done, 20 minutes of writing a day toward it (revising or new words). Meditate at least 10 minutes a day. And really just make it through the home stretch without falling apart. Maudehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11918488082176862598noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-8544956625396140532015-11-03T22:00:15.908+00:002015-11-03T22:00:15.908+00:00I went to my GP yesterday, and he issued me with a...I went to my GP yesterday, and he issued me with a sick note, so work have decided I should just not come in (which is it's own sort of saga. I should probably have asked for a 'light duties' sort of sick note which would have let me cover some stuff and not other with a good grace, but I saw the Doc early in the morning and felt quite grim, as usual, and just so <i>tired</i> of the effort of trying to be professional, and I can't talk so it's quite a strain to try & have the relevant discussion, and so - sick note. Off. Cancel everything (in theory someone else will cancel everything but I expect it'll be me doing it eventually. Like tomorrow. Because so far today I've had emails along the "well I can't decide someone else needs to decide" sort of lines). But a sick academic who isn't like deathly sick isn't like other workers, and some TLQ - and obligation-work too - will get done, because it wants doing, because... because there are grant deadlines and you don't get a sick note from them, for a start. So.<br /><br /><b>goals:</b><br />1) self-care<br />2) grant application<br />3) Get ahead on NaNoWriMo<br />4) teaching prep for 2 weeks' time<br />5) half an hour of domestic environment self-care a day<br /><br />1): because if I'm off sick then I should look after myself, right? Maybe I need a star chart...<br />2) because deadlines are immovable, and I'm behind on the central schedule, but can still make it if I get on with it tomorrow, I think. And I'm really sick of myself being a person who gets sick and who doesn't submit grants - I can DO something about the latter, so I WILL.<br />3) because I need the escapism<br />4) because my voice WILL come back (it is very slightly better today...)<br />5) because my house is a tip and that is both unhealthy and depressing, plus reorganising stuff is therapeutic.JaneBhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17779448611795379774noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-32577685975296794962015-11-03T21:51:53.736+00:002015-11-03T21:51:53.736+00:00How do I feel about my TLQ? Joy, when it's MIN...How do I feel about my TLQ? Joy, when it's MINE. There's a satisfaction in using your talents, you know? But a lot of guilt and should around the obligations it comes tangled in, to collaborators, to all the external measures of whether it has merit other than does it advance science, to the people who pay my wages. And for being a bad friend or daughter or whatever, though in many ways that's more about being me than about this TLQ - there'd always be something that took me away from other people, that's how I'm made, as an intravert, my energy comes from being away from people. Maybe intraversion just comes along with a certain amount of guilt for not being what other people need, just as to a thoughtful extravert there must be a concern around being needier than others...<br /><br /><b>last week's goals:</b><br />1) self-care first: <i>meh. ish. Not been in the mood</i><br />2) get ready for NaNoWriMo! <i>well it's started, and I have a few preparatory notes and ideas. So this is kind of a yes</i><br />3) Have one solid attempt at the grant again, see if I can find a different hook for the project, and rework the budget (again) <i>nope, got distracted by other stuff like going into work to try & teach in silence, and stressing about NOT being at work</i><br />4) Finish some refereeing <i>yes. Took ages because the paper was dire and I feel extra burdened to write with particular care and charity and specificity when I recommend reject</i><br />5) spend one hour on some TLQ writing which is not Repeater or the grant - there are several options, just pick the one I fancy.<i>nope, unless NaNo counts!</i><br /><br /><b>analysis:</b> I've struggled with being sort-of sick this week - I've had a heavy cold and lost my voice, the latter meaning I can't go to work, the former meaning I feel ill enough to be sorry for myself but not ill enough to feel like I legitimately can't possibly do anything - and the obligations and guilt I feel about being sick AGAIN, and some interactions with people at work which eat away at my energy and time. I've let my sleeping get out of sync, let exercise slip (it makes me cough, so...), spent too much time idling around avoiding things, generally been rather feeble and annoyed myself. Also, I HAVE finally finished all the back and forth of Repeater, and it is resubmitted today. Phew!JaneBhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17779448611795379774noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-20559706267336676422015-11-03T16:29:54.504+00:002015-11-03T16:29:54.504+00:00I got so caught up in reading all of your comments...I got so caught up in reading all of your comments that I forgot to do my own check-in.<br /><br />Well, as I said, I feel a lot of guilt. And I don't think my guilt comes too much from societal expectations of my roles (well, maybe a little bit), but more from the fact that my daughter is very verbal about how much she misses me when I'm working. Last night, she complained about the fact that it's Daddy (not me) who gets up with her on Tuesday mornings. This morning (when I did in fact get up early to spend time with her), she complained that I would be working this evening. Then we were talking about her school camping trip in February, and she begged me to be a chaperone, which would require me to cancel classes on at least one day and also miss a whole weekend of time to grade or do TLQ. She is darling and the biggest snuggle bunny in the world, but it's hard not to feel guilty. So I try to do my best as a mom, and then I try to feel okay about the fact that I get a little extra sleep Tuesday mornings, and that I will get extra work done this evening, and that she will have a fun "Daddy night" without me. <br /><br />Oh how I want to be on sabbatical forever. I really do.<br /><br />Last week's goals:<br />1) Nightly check-in to plan exercise and work.--->NO. Not once.<br />2) Complete half of revisions for Chapter 1 based on friendly-reader feedback.---> ALL OF IT! I did all of it and send it off to supervisor.<br />3) Exercise 4x (2x swimming).--->YES. I even swam 3x.<br />4) Spend 1 hour per day reading primary sources.--->Hmmm. I don't think I did this.<br />5) Spend at least 3 hours writing proper text for Chapter 2--NOPE.<br />6) Take Tuesday off to swim, have a nice lunch with husband (if he's free), visit the bookstore, and maybe catch a matinee (or maybe just read) before dinner with family. #heaven--->YES, and it was lovely.<br />7) Call to arrange a room/studio for writing retreat (I'm rethinking the camping plan)--->YES! Thank you, Amstr! :)<br /><br />Analysis: I can feel the sabbatical time running out, especially what with upcoming holidays and the general "no-school November" things for the kids. I have been approaching the thesis pretty leisurely--not working after the kids are in bed, etc.--but it might be time to step things up. I can't let the next six weeks slip by without being extremely productive. I'm way behind on my chapter revision schedule.<br /><br />This is ambitious list of goals, considering that I'll have extra kid time this week, but I'm gonna go for it.<br /><br />This week's goals:<br />1) Outline new theory/history chapter that I think I'll need for the thesis, and draft at least 1000 words.<br />2) Read 7-10 secondary articles, chapter.<br />3) Read primary sources for 4 hours.<br />4) Mine my Moleskin notebook (at least 30 pages of it) for material to insert into chapter. <br />5) Night check-in, keep up with exercise<br />6) find checks or call bankGood Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-88536293221557135282015-11-03T16:12:38.536+00:002015-11-03T16:12:38.536+00:00Oh, yes, anger. I forgot about anger. And that rem...Oh, yes, anger. I forgot about anger. And that reminds me that, at work, when email messages start flooding in with "Oh I need this tomorrow" type service things, I feel resentful.<br /><br />YES, HALF, and ALMOST sounds like a pretty good week! Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-31464815346380416662015-11-03T16:10:25.622+00:002015-11-03T16:10:25.622+00:00So sorry about the bozos, but congrats on getting ...So sorry about the bozos, but congrats on getting caught up some service despite all that. I hope the grading goes well and at a reasonable pace.<br />Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-8173272530715120462015-11-03T16:06:56.780+00:002015-11-03T16:06:56.780+00:00So glad to hear screaming deadlines aren't lur...So glad to hear screaming deadlines aren't lurking. Your goals sound both productive and pleasant.<br /><br />Despite my joke above, I too feel the weight of "should," but ultimately it's the guilt that gets me. But I do enjoy most of what I do, so focusing on the joy (or even the value, as you suggest) is a good plan.Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-66697418742458255022015-11-03T16:00:16.357+00:002015-11-03T16:00:16.357+00:00So sorry for the vomit and daughter being sick. I ...So sorry for the vomit and daughter being sick. I hope the illness was short lived and that she is recovering. I also hope your cold/allergies are lifting. <br /><br />We have parent-teacher conferences this month, too, and on those days, daughter gets out of school an hour early. And there is no school this Friday because of teacher professional development, no school next Wed b/c of Veteran's day, and no school for the week of Thanksgiving. I call it "no school November," which means that it could easily turn into no-work November. Must not let that happen! Good luck with being productive through the play dates. I hope you can get a lot of TLQ accomplished before those exams and papers start rolling in.Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-26753001562037890392015-11-03T15:54:52.241+00:002015-11-03T15:54:52.241+00:00Good luck with the grading, and I hope you enjoy t...Good luck with the grading, and I hope you enjoy the conference and that the talk goes well. Re-grouping post-conference seems like a good plan (it's something that I usually have to do...).Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-91106083424704589352015-11-03T15:51:51.330+00:002015-11-03T15:51:51.330+00:00Nice job completing the goals from two weeks ago, ...Nice job completing the goals from two weeks ago, and good luck with your ramp up on tiny project this week. <br /><br />And good luck with Nanowrimo! I'm thinking of doing some kind of AcWrMo (kind of late to the game), but it's a bit more nebulous. Ambitious goals might be good for November though since, otherwise, it could easily slip by.Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-50167671267866900212015-11-03T15:48:44.725+00:002015-11-03T15:48:44.725+00:00Nice job with the ILL books (did you have them for...Nice job with the ILL books (did you have them for a year?) and the exercise. <br /><br />I think we've probably discussed this before, but in order to kick the iPad out of bed, could you bring something else in? A book? A magazine? Or maybe you've already tried that . . .Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-19106261883381816672015-11-03T15:44:26.061+00:002015-11-03T15:44:26.061+00:00I think it's a woman thing. If it weren't,...I think it's a woman thing. If it weren't, more men would experience the same kind of guilt.<br /><br />Congrats on getting so much work done. That's fantastic! I hope you enjoy a light week this week as you plan, cook, read, etc.Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-28197163522856396422015-11-03T04:22:49.377+00:002015-11-03T04:22:49.377+00:00I think I feel more like Susan, and sometimes get ...I think I feel more like Susan, and sometimes get borne down by the weight of responsibility and obligation. And then get angry about it all from time to time, when that responsibility isn't shared by my siblings, for example. Sometimes it is guilt, when I realise I am paying very little attention to those around me, because I am tuning out to distress even though I am present. Anyway, I am trying to be more present, and tune out guilt.<br />Last weeks goals<br />1. Exercise 4x - YES, although a couple of times were fairly minimal walks<br />2. Finish data entry - HALF<br />3. Finish CR draft without input from collaborator - ALMOST<br /><br />This weeks goals:<br />1. Finish data entry<br />2. Draw some graphs related to project ppw<br />3. Finish the CR draft, which I now feel much more motivated about because I can see an end to it.<br /><br /><br /><br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-22476722962938340712015-11-02T21:40:25.976+00:002015-11-02T21:40:25.976+00:00Getting a technique to deal with annoying colleagu...Getting a technique to deal with annoying colleagues who generate high stress (and everyone has at least one) is really important. I've started looking at the things that get me excited, and I say, OK, this is massively f***ed up, but what can I do that is constructive? How can I respond. Once I figure out something I can do that makes me feel as if I've been constructive, then I can let go of what I described in a memo to my colleagues as "incandescent rage" that sweeps over me.Susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09716705206734059708noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-89138829552468781662015-11-02T21:35:00.380+00:002015-11-02T21:35:00.380+00:00I like should -- I think that's what hovers ov...I like should -- I think that's what hovers over me. For everything.Susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09716705206734059708noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-10921549978300707302015-11-02T17:39:14.093+00:002015-11-02T17:39:14.093+00:00Yes, "should" is always lurking over me,...Yes, "should" is always lurking over me, too. But you know what they say: "Don't should on yourself."Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-41754254971498051762015-11-02T17:31:54.158+00:002015-11-02T17:31:54.158+00:00I, too, am sorry about the house. I do not have a ...I, too, am sorry about the house. I do not have a family home from growing up (we moved around a lot), but our current house has become that for our children. I have always loved houses and homes. They are, indeed, more that wood and plaster. But the memories really do live within YOU, so, yes, DH's words seem wise.<br /><br />And, still, you had an impressive TLQ week! Congrats! I'm sure DH was grateful for the help.Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-55520636052787700202015-11-02T17:27:33.077+00:002015-11-02T17:27:33.077+00:00My uncle once asked me about my working. I can'...My uncle once asked me about my working. I can't remember exactly what he said, but it definitely had an undertone of judgment and referred to the work as a choice. The ridiculous thing about it, at the time, was that my husband was in grad school, so I was the breadwinner of our family. Unfortunately, I was so taken aback by his question that I forgot to point that out.Good Enough Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16531793545583712309noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-45181177503054586592015-11-02T13:14:38.835+00:002015-11-02T13:14:38.835+00:00This Upcoming Week
-order book on destressing and...This Upcoming Week<br /><br />-order book on destressing and relaxation<br />-have some down time every day<br />-make sure I get enough sleep and take good care of my health (am going to the doctor today, so I'm working on this!)<br />-get to grading asap, but in a reasonable and not totally-stressed out way<br />-work a bit on Tiny Article due in Two Weeks in small bits (it would be great if I could sit down and schedule this, but I don't know about that)<br />-pick a book related to Big Project to be my go-to book so I can feel productive instead of spending my time looking for a book and then reading something I really don't need to read (like a magazine) that doesn't get me anywhere (in terms of feeling productive)<br />-try to remember that it won't always be like this<br />-remember that nothing is worth killing myself over, especially bozo colleagues with antediluvian ideas that are unjust. move like water.<br />Earnest Englishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01947000435270263070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-62958273002972089562015-11-02T13:14:10.890+00:002015-11-02T13:14:10.890+00:00Last Week's Goals
-The big thing I have to do...Last Week's Goals<br /><br />-The big thing I have to do this week is not get totally backed up with big grading. I'm getting 20 portfolios on Tuesday, so I need to be really big and adult about this and get four done on each day I don't teach. If I get five done on each day I don't teach, then I can have one day off from grading over the weekend. I really need to do this. I have such a problem getting papers back. This is not TLQ, but it's absolutely my goal this week.: okay, for the entire week I graded one portfolio. There were many mitigating factors, such as that I was on campus all week, often in really annoying meetings. Then there was Halloween on one weekend day and health-related issues on the other day. I've decided not to beat myself up about this. This is what sucks about this quarter: my health is really on the edge because of the stress of my teaching schedule. I have to be careful to not push too hard or I'll get sick and the whole thing will fall apart.<br /><br />-continue taking magnesium: Yes<br /><br />-make sure to eat decent food in addition to the leftover cupcakes!!!: Yes. We even bought and made salad last night.<br /><br />-exercise: ha ha. I think I did this once. I realized that many nights, I'm working rather than watching shows. I also started watching Witches of East End on Halloween. I needed a new show, so this is great.<br /><br />-get decent sleep: Mostly. <br /><br />-don't take on anything else until you catch up on service: figure out who to delegate things to!: I got caught up on one service obligation and am mostly caught up with another one and totally prepared to hand off the hard part this week.<br /><br />-nothing is worth killing yourself over. move like water.: Epic fail this week. I was involved in two difficult and troubling meetings this week that completely angered and stressed me out. There was another thing that totally angered me (someone arguing one point to me then going 180 and arguing something much more akin to what I'm arguing back in another context: so this person doesn't recognize the value of X when arguing about the goals of This Class, but when arguing for This Other Thing, this person argues for the value of X -- OH this pisses me off). And I got up in arms about all three situations both in the moment and afterward, which has nothing to do with moving like water. I've decided this week that I need help learning how to de-stress and so I'm getting a book on cognitive-behavioral approaches to this to help me cope. (This week reminded me of that wonderful 1980s definition of stress as the overwhelming urge to choke the living shit out of some asshole who desperately needs it. I am this close to including that I did not kill anyone as a major service accomplishment on my annual report.) <br /><br />Analysis<br /><br />Uh, it's difficult to make myself do anything, especially push past my feelings and exhaustion, when the expectations are unreasonable. I did steal from my sleep to get some things done this last week, and I did not like that. I have to manage my feelings and physical exhaustion about all this or I'm going to have problems.<br /><br />Earnest Englishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01947000435270263070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2607718568717088162.post-66971943199229104452015-11-02T13:13:36.154+00:002015-11-02T13:13:36.154+00:00I'm honored (I think) to have things I've ...I'm honored (I think) to have things I've written coming up in other people's posts! <br /><br />If asked about the first word that comes to mind when I think about my role as a mother, the first word would definitely be negative like "guilt" or "worry" but I think this is, at least for me, because of the framing of the question. It's not about thinking about the act of mothering, but about "my role as a mother." For me, roles are about duties and obligations, not about feelings, actions, or the motivation behind actions. When I think of "roles," I think of expectations that come from outside myself and have little to do with me as an individual. Trying to live up to different expectations of "roles" is, I think, what makes me tend toward impostor syndrome. Thinking about my "role" is what might get me to do something I really should when I'm really not feeling it (maybe). For me, even though I've chosen the roles of "professor" and "mother," thinking about roles is almost always negative. So the question is not a good one for me. Still, if someone asked me what I thought about when I thought of the action of parenting, I'd probably say something like "conflicted" or "difficult," which is still worrying (though I think that this also might be because I tend to reflect on the bad times and just enjoy the good times, so this indicates where I might change my focus -- if I start thinking more about the good times, maybe I can figure out how to expand them). The act of professing? Well, this last week was a bad one for asking that question because of meetings with bozos that were so awful that I was so happy to be teaching (and not be in meetings) on my teaching days until three students revealed themselves to be bozos in, of course, very different ways from the meeting bozos. <br /><br />Reading those writing schedules did make me long to live the life of a writer, but even more so it made me envious of those who send their kids to school! (We homeschool, which in many ways is wonderful for the entire family -- we all learn together at a pace that suits us! -- but certainly I'd have a lot more unconflicted work and writing time if Kid went off to school every day.) This quarter is just terrible, and I'm really struggling, but for my own sanity it would help if I wrote and read a bit more on my project, even in tiny little sips.<br />Earnest Englishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01947000435270263070noreply@blogger.com